March 09, 2003 - 8:04 p.m.
Thanks to Ashleigh, who left a note in my guestbook. You didn't leave a way of contact, but your note just gave me a burst of confidence. We all pretend to be so different, but we all have the same dreams and fear. We all look for our happiness and try to escape pain. Though we separate each other, we are all the same.
According to Evangelion, humanity is the only species capable of hating their own kind. And out of our selfishness, all we do is hate, because all we can do is hate ourselves. It's comfortable hating, because by loving, you actually put yourself out there. Like putting your heart on a platter and asking a vulture not to attack.
What am I doing, rambling on like this? My head hasn't been clear lately, as displayed by my act of signing up to run for Presdent of Student Council. What the hell was I thinking? It's not that I don't think I couldn't hack it, I know I could. And I'd be damn good. But I don't feel like losing.
When it comes down to it, I'd rather be oblivious to my own faults and weaknesses than correct them. Being oblivious is comforting, too.
Gabby let me spend the night last night, and we had fun. I'm positively addicted to Kare Kano.
