May 14, 2003 - 9:46 p.m.
I'm now the Student Council Historian. Which means that I take some pictures, make a scrapbook, and design a webpage for student council. Because if I can't be the President, I might as well be their bitch. But a high ranking bitch. I get to have homeroom in the Stuco Homeroom, and have my own staff. So, yes, in a way Cassie has bitches. As my friend Kate would say, "Huzzah!"
Everytime I talk about Student Council, I think of the few episodes of Utena I've seen. Maybe that why I wanted to be in Student Council so badly. Maybe I think they have their own tragic secrets up there in the government room!
I sometimes wonder what the kids from middle school would say if they saw me now. If they saw me as a troublemaker, as a leader, as a pervert. I bet they would crap their pants! Shit all over the floor!
God, I'm so glad I'm gone. So glad I've left that behind. Starting over is always good.
Dance class has gotten so weird for me. I remember I time when I used to love going to dance because that'd where my friends were. I didn't have any good friends at school, so dance wasa very social thing for me. And then things changed. I changed, I found real friends. And I just sort of left them behind.
Now, I dance because I want to. Because I love it and because I'm improving. But my friends have dwindled to a pretty small group, and I barely even talk to them.
What can I say to them?
It's like we're on different wavelengths. Ugh.
I wonder what they would say if they found out I listen to Japanese boys in makeup. When they found out I watched DBZ last year, the practically croaked. They don't know what Warped Tour is. They've only seen Monty Python and the Holy Grail since this year.
When I told them about Monty Python last year, they looked at me like I was crazy.
At least my technique is getting much better. Or else I'd quit.
